Nick was rubbing his eyes with his fists, finding this whole thing had exhausted him. He was a young and relatively fit and healthy teenage guy, so he had no idea why this was playing on him so much. "I'm sort of self-conscious too. I don't know why. Getting naked with someone and, you know, being inside them and stuff. It seems like a huge deal. What if she thinks I look weird? Or what if I get there, and don't really know what to do? I mean, I have an idea. Ethan filled in a lot of the gaps when I interrogated him about it, but I don't know. I might suck."

"I don't mean she's going to break up with me because I'm not ready. She just might have bigger ideas of how it's all supposed to work, and then if things change because of it, we might not work as well as we do. I don't know girls that well. I mean, I do, but not when it comes to this sort of stuff. They might have these amazing ideas, and if I don't live up to it, I'll make her first time suck too, and I don't want that." He gave a small groan and then yawned, rolling onto his side. "I don't know what to do. I mean, it was hot. I was turned on. That was why she thought... you know... she could feel I was turned on. Now I'm just all frustrated, but confused about it."