Nick knew that all his insecurities right now were telling that he just really wasn't ready to take his relationship with Abi to the next level. He knew that being a teenager, the pressure was on, and he was wondering if he should do it. Hell, they had been dating the same length of time as Kurt and Blaine, who seemed to have the right consistency with everything. It was just the rest of the world that got them down. "Ethan's not a virgin. He hasn't been in ages. That's why he's comfortable with it all. And, yeah, I know I'm not a virgin either, but I don't remember my first time, so it's a bit hard to draw on that experience right now beyond just not wanting to fuck it all up again."

He looked at Jeff quietly for a little bit, frowning with confusion. "I just want it to be amazing the next time I do it. I want to have all those feelings people talk about when they're in love. I want it to be perfect. I want to know when it's all over that I have no regrets. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Do you think I am? Do you think first times like that even exist? Maybe I should ask Blaine? Do you think he would tell me about his first time? If it was all it cracked up to be? Or if maybe I'm just living in fantasy land with fairies and pixies."