alwaysawarbler | "I'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake..."

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dapperdevious
What? In which Sebastian's queer eye finds a not-straight guy...
When? Friday afternoon, after Warblers' practice
Where? In the Warblers practice room.
Rating: Could be anything

Since Jeff and Nick's not-quite-fight a while ago, Jeff had to admit that things had been strained between him and his best friend. They'd chatted a little, tried to keep things as normal as possible between them, and, as far as Jeff could tell? Failed miserably. He hated the way it felt having normal conversations with Nick, but not feeling normal about them in the least. The smiles that used to pass so easily between the two of them now felt forced, unnatural... And Jeff was tired of it. He was tired of feeling like he didn't have a best friend anymore, but an acquaintance, and he was tired of things bothering him that shouldn't. Nick was his best friend. He should be happy that Nick had a girlfriend, and a really nice one at that, who really seemed to like him a lot. He should be thrilled that they were talking about taking their relationship to the next level. But he wasn't, and he couldn't even begin to put a finger on why.

Warblers practice had been longer than usual, with a rendition of Jeff's favorite Beach Boys song, "In My Room," which he'd grown up listening to with his dad for most of his life. In fact, as a child, it had been one of his lullabies, and it always reminded him of home. Home, which he was really missing these days, since his dorm room with Nick had lost the feeling of home it used to have to him.

At the end of practice, Nick had gone off with Blaine, Kurt, and Mike to grab dinner before the caf closed for the night, and invited Jeff along, but the blonde had thanked him, but said no. He wasn't even sure why, if he really asked himself about it deep down.

Still, his gaze lingered on his best friend as he sank down onto the couch and watched him walk away.

What the hell was wrong with him?

He glanced up just in time to see Sebastian walking past him toward the door, and Jeff's eyes discretely took in the other boy's movement. Or at least, he thought it was discretely. He let his eyes trace over Sebastian's form, unconsciously biting down on his lower lip, and wondering why it was that he was not only checking out an incredibly gorgeous guy, but getting turned on in the process.

What Jeff hadn't been expecting was for Sebastian to turn around and glance at him just as he was searching for something of a throw pillow variety to put on his lap. The blonde quickly averted his gaze and tried to make it seem as if he'd been staring at a painting on the wall.

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Jeff wanted to protest further, but there was no point. Sebastian wasn't buying it, and there was nothing Jeff could say that would prove it to him. He hadn't even realized it himself, but clearly, Sebastian had seen something that made him think Jeff was perving hardcore on Nick. Jeff quickly pushed that aside. "I've never been to New York," he mused. He wanted to ask what it was like, and if Sebastian missed it, but he got the feeling that was unwelcome conversation at the time.

The blonde tossed his hair to one side with a shrug. "I didn't say skills. I said I'm a fast learner... I... I've n..." He spoke in a tiny voice that he wasn't even sure Sebastian could hear. "'Mavirgin..."

"No law says you have to either," Sebastian returned lightly. The slight agitation and nervousness Jeff was exhibiting in this situation was enough to tell him how inexperienced the guy was. And course he was. As of a few minutes he ago, he probably hadn't even been sure a closet existed, let alone whether he was coming out of it. There was no right or wrong way to come out, some just had a smoother ride than others. But this right here, Jeff was exposing himself to be taken advantage of and Sebastian didn't want to see that happen... but he could still have a bit of fun with it.

He didn't, however, expect to hear that Jeff hadn't even done the deed with a chick. Wow. Did he really want to bother with an all-out virgin? It sounded like too much work. Sebastian never wanted to be anyone's first. "You know, maybe you should get that cherry popped with a chick first. Anal's not for the fainthearted."

This was one of those times Jeff really wished he knew how to keep his mouth shut. He was starting to really feel embarrassed. He felt stupid, and he couldn't figure out why he kept talking... Saying stupid things that had nothing to do with anything. But at that response, he managed to keep his mouth shut.

Jeff turned to look at Sebastian as the other guy suggested he sleep with a girl before trying to get his gay on. "B... but I don't really know that many girls. At least... Not in Ohio. Just Crawford girls who are friends with Nicky's girlfriend, and I don't wanna sleep with any of them." He shrugged, hating that he'd slipped up and brought Nick back into the conversation again.

Sebastian scratched at his temple, nose scrunching up a little wryly as he listened. If ever there was an awkward moment, it was dealing with virgins. He was pretty sure he just did not have the patience, not to mention he would be faintly concerned what injuries he might suffer at the hands of a dude who didn't not know how to work an ass. "Then maybe you should get someone back in Kansas to do the deed, Dorothy," he said blandly and looked at his watch. He didn't want to play Dr Phil to the inexperienced of the world. "Or just hit on your room mate. You never know, you might get lucky."

Jeff realized he was quickly losing his opportunity, and he needed it, if for no other reason than to prove that he didn't want to sleep with Nick. He swallowed hard before nodding. "Fine... I'll... I'll get rid of my V-card before you and I do anything. Just... I guess I'll let you know when it's done." This was fucking crazy, and it wasn't Jeff's way. He'd always thought when he had sex, he wanted it to mean something. That resolve had only been strengthened when he saw how Nick had felt after his drunken sex with the random chick at the party. But in a way, it would mean something. If he slept with a girl, it would help him to discover who he really was... right? He picked up his book bag. "I gotta get to class, but I'll see you later, okay?"

Sebastian looked the blond up and down, really not sure by this point what was a joke and what wasn't. That alone was sort of boring him because actual virgins were an unknown quantity. You could never be sure how sensitive they were, or even just plain desperate. Still, it must be awkward to be crushing on your straight best friend without realising it and Sebastian had the faint notion to be sympathetic over it... but it wasn't like he was going to lose any sleep over the issue. He really wasn't wanting for other prospects he could have fun with.

He hitched his bag over his shoulder again. "Whatever," he returned through a cynical laugh and threw Jeff a wave before sauntered out of the common room himself. And there he was thinking Hummel and Anderson were the only virgins left at Dalton.

"I'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake..."

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